tl;dr: i am in a very toxic environment with little money. i live in florida and need to be in oklahoma by the end of march. my paypal is email@example.com and i would really, really appreciate donations.
my name is maria.
i am mildly depressed and have severe anxiety. i also have chronic bronchitis and what i suspect is a thyroid disorder, but i havent gotten it diagnosed.
i dont speak about it publicly or very often because my family has found my tumblr before, but i live in an abusive environment. my parents are both heavy drug users, and my mother is an alcoholic on top of this. they fight loudly, violently, and often over each others prescriptions and spend days at a time incapacitated. this is detrimental to my already poor mental health, and i have frequent panic attacks because of them.
my mother is verbally abusive, emotionally manipulative, and very easily set off. she has been physically abusive in the past. she threatens and attempts to gaslight and intimidate me whenever she doesnt get her way, and tonight she harassed me for almost 5 hours because i didnt want to give her my skype information. it has been about 40 minutes since she last came into my room and im having a lot of trouble writing this post..
my father is high strung and unstable as well, and he threatens to kill us and himself on a regular basis. he has two guns. he has snapped and whipped me before.
both of my parents are chain smokers, and this is minor compared to everything else but the secondhand smoke irritates my bronchitis and gives me severe headaches and nausea. they refuse to stop smoking around me, even though my doctor has advised against it multiple times.
i will go into more detail for anyone who asks, but this post is already longer than i would like.
i live in florida and i need to get to oklahoma. i can cover my plane ticket but thats about it. i cannot walk far distances because of my lungs and the nearest bus stop is ~2 miles away. i need to take a cab to the airport. its $90. theres also bag check (~$150) and other miscellaneous expenses.
im not able to cover everything and i need to get out of this house by march 28. i will only continue to deteriorate if i stay here and im already in a bad place.
please, please donate to me via paypal at firstname.lastname@example.org.